I got the beads for my “Pounds lost” “Pounds to lose” jars, But sadly, they’re not as big as I thought (I bought them off Ebay). They don’t even take up half the jar, Haha. I need bigger beads or smaller jars. I’ll probably just use some old jam jars when they empty ‘cause they’re a lot smaller.
Well, Today’s workout pretty much sucked. I usually do the 30 DS and Ripped in 30, But half way through the 30 DS my brother wants to come home and you all know I can’t workout when he’s around. He FINALLY went in to his room and left me alone so I finished it, But because I stopped for like 40 minutes in between it wasn’t a very effective workout. I’d do my Ripped in 30 routine, But since he’s home and going throughout the house- I can’t. Ugh, I mean I love my brother to death and I want him around; Just not when I’m working out. He needs to be at work or at a friends house or something. Needless to say I feel like a slob. Hopefully he’ll be sleeping heavy in the A.M and I won’t wake him up during my morning routine. I Hate working out, But I hate NOT working out even more.
I am so sick and tired of these dumb arse females on tumblr always complaining about their bodies. I’m not going to sit here and preach to you about “Love and embrace what you have.” or “Be thankful for what you have. A lot of other females would be happy to have your figure.” You’ve heard that song and dance umpteen times before and obviously that’s not going to change your mind. What I AM going to say though is IF YOU DON’T LIKE SOMETHING-FREAKING CHANGE IT! If you’re not willing to work for it- Then you don’t deserve it. 99.9% of females don’t get flawless bodies naturally. They have to work for it too. What makes you any different? Why should YOU be special and be able to sit on your bum all day eating chips and stay thin? Being thin doesn’t always mean healthy anyways and health is more important than your desire to be a size 0. You can sit there and envy every other female who crosses your path, Comparing yourself to them-Feeling sorry for yourself because you don’t look like them or you can get off your lazy arse and do something about it. Hating other people for having the body you want isn’t going to benefit you in the least. It’s not going to give you that body you desire. It’s only going to give you bitter and angry feelings. No matter how much you think it’s unfair that you don’t get your body naturally- It’s not going to change a DAMN thing. Play the cards you’re dealt and go for a freaking run. If you spent half the energy you spend on loathing your body on working out- How much closer to your goal would you be? You CAN have the body you want. Yes, It takes time and effort and energy, But that’s a small price to pay for health, Satisfaction and confidence. Plus, That sense of accomplishment. Whether you weigh 92 pounds or 202 pounds- If you don’t like what you have CHANGE IT! If you keep doing what you’re doing you’re going to keep getting what you’re getting. If you’re tired of starting over you have to stop quitting. Yeah, Working out hurts. Hating your body hurts worse. You’re not going to get you’re dream body over night. You won’t get you’re dream body in a month. It may take you 6 months to get the body you want. “Don’t let the fear of the time it will take to accomplish something stand in the way of your doing it. The time will pass anyway; we might just as well put that passing time to the best possible use.”
I’m looking at my year book from 2006. When I was in 8th grade. I was 13. I weighed 170-180 pounds. Technically that was still over weight for my age and height, But that was 70-80 pounds less than what I weigh now! And I was in proportion so I could have passed off as someone who weighed 160. I just remember thinking I was SOOOO fat back then. While it wouldn’t have hurt me to lose some weight- I still looked and felt 10x’s better then than I do now. I look at my pictures and think “If I hated my body then- How could I of let it get like THIS?”. I also think “WHY can’t I be that size NOW?” As much as I loathed my body then- I’d give almost anything to be that size now. I wore about a size 13. One part of me just wants to get back to that size, But another part of me keeps saying “Well, You hated your body when you weighed 180- So even after you lose 70 pounds and get back down to 180- You’re STILL going to hate how you look and feel.” I would LOVE to get down to 190-180 by May, But I think that’s pushing it.
Counting calories is not a sin. Everybody should do it. Not so they can starve themselves at 600-800, but to see how much between the 1700-2500 a day people can actually eat (depending on their everyday-life) without gaining weight. I mean, the number of people who doesn't seem to understand that their family dinner is actually overriding the maximum of calories and therefore causing them to gain weight is incredible. And they wonder what the source of their unhappiness possibly could be. I count calories, I eat between 4-6 times a day, and I never fall asleep hungry. I'm reaching my ultimate goal weight. The right way. And I don't care that people think it's a sin I count calories. I thrive on their ignorance, if they won't listen. I will do this.
Every time I go to the store I always get the same ol’ thing. Berries, Bananas, Apples, Citrus fruits, Kiwi, ect ect ect. All the basic, Common fruit. What are some other, More excited fruits to try? I know I really want to try dragon fruit, But that’s not available in regular grocery stores around here.
Day 30: 10 facts about myself. And what are my stats.
Well, I’m trying my hardest to only weigh myself every 30 days. So, I can’t really tell you my weight exactly. I know the LOWEST I’ve ever seen on the scale since I begun my journey is 244 and my start weight was 250. However, that weigh in was at like the end of December or the beginning of January. My next weigh in is on February 12th. So, I’ll know then.
10 facts? Well I’m actually a very boring person so I don’t really have much to say, Lol. I’ll give it a shot though.
My dream job would to be either A) A game show host B) A cartoon actor; Do voices and such or C) A children’s author
I drive a 2007 Chevy Malibu
I’m going to go to school for Childhood and development along with cosmetology
I really want an owl tattoo
I have a Blackberry and I hate it
I collect garden gnomes
I’ve bought like 9 pairs of TOMS and I want like 5 more
I have to wear 3+ bras when I work out
I use Angel Soft toilet paper
My dad owes me $45 bucks, But I owe him $60 and I’m not going to remind him for a few months because I’m broke, Lol.
Everyone has different tastes, preferences and opinions. What I think is attractive and what someone else thinks is attractive may be two different things. What looks good on someone may not look good on someone else. Let it be noted that there is more than one kind of beauty. There is inner beauty and outer beauty. Inner beauty is who you are when no one is looking. Outer beauty is simply the shell that inner beauty dwells is. That shell is never perfect or flawless. It can beautiful or homely. It needs to be maintained and cared for. It effects how you think and feel. It never pleases you even at its best. It might not think it looks good on you, But inner beauty looks good on everyone.
It doesn’t matter what anyone else thinks about you as long as you’re happy. That of course has been stated in many Hallmark cards and fortune cookies, but it’s true. If I look in the mirror and like what I see inside and or out; IDGAF whether Gracie Lou two blocks down thinks I’m hideous. It’s my body, My face, My life, Not yours. Whether you’re a size 2 or a size 12, Whether you’re as tan as a pumpkin or pasty as glue, Whether you’re tall as Shaq or short as a garden gnome; If you’re pleased with what you see- That IS all that matters. If you put what others think of you before what you think of you- You will never be happy. You will spend a life time trying to please everyone else- People that won’t even matter one year from now. There is not one person, place or thing in this universe who has the admiring eyes of everyone. You CANNOT please everyone. Jesus Christ Himself doesn’t even please everyone and He IS perfect. You will go through life bending over backwards and folding yourself in half for people that no matter what you do- they will never be satisfied. If they didn’t like you before- they won’t like you now. Screw what everyone else thinks. If you think you’re beautiful then you’re beautiful. Beauty is up to the individual. Not various members of society and the media. And maybe you don’t like something you see in the mirror. Not because someone else doesn’t like it, But because YOU don’t like it. Well, If throwing on some mascara and a push up bra makes you feel better about yourself then go for it! It’s your body. Little to no people are just naturally beautiful. People just like yards and houses require maintenance work.