Sick of not wanting to take pictures with my friends. Sick of not knowing what to wear because the muffin tops will show and/or the fat just hangs. Sick of being subconscious. Sick of never wanting to go swimming. Sick of no longer wearing shorts or tank tops. Sick of be subconscious. Sick of getting tired from walking up a simple flight of stairs. Sick of walking being embarrassed to ask for my size at the store. Sick of making the couch sink in when i sit. Sick of being subconscious. Sick of looking in the mirror and hating, wait, no.. DESPISING what I see. Sick of wishing to be better, skinnier, healthier, prettier. I'm so sick of it.
A lot of people swear by these products, Then other people are disappointed by these products and I’m not going to be one to rant about how it “doesn’t work” and how it’s “not effective”. In all honesty, I do believe if you use these products and the 3 2 1 plan as directed you WILL see results. The only catch is- If you’re trying to lose a significant amount of weight this is probably not the best “diet plan” for you. Reason be; You can only take so much Slim-Fast. While they offer a variety of flavors; over time you’re going to get tired of eating/drinking the Same ‘Ol thing. Same thing with the “Special K” diet. It works if you work it; But no one wants to eat cereal 14 times in one week. Not to mention all their cereal bars and shakes. And you still have to eat other sensible meals, Drink LOTS of H20 and exercise regularly in order for these “diet plans” to be effective. Basically all they’re doing is offering you a semi tasty food/beverage that’s low in calories yet filling at the same time. That’s it- If you could just plan out your own meals that were tasty and low caloric meals; You’d have the same exact results. For some reason people seem to think there is some magical chemical in these products that make you lose weight- Which is NOT the case. Please really need to look into the details before jumping to conclusions. In other words; I DO believe Slim-Fast works, But unless you’re only trying to lose about 10 pounds or something- This diet will get old fast and you’re not likely to stick to it. You’re better off just creating your own meals. However, I do believe Slim-fast can be used in a different way. If you’re running late in the morning or something, But you still want to get breakfast in; Grabbing Slim-Fast bar/shake can be a life saver. It’s very quick, simple and convenient to consume on the go. It has a chemical in it to make you feel full. While that doesn’t MAKE you lose weight; It keeps you from feeling hungry and you feel satisfied so you don’t think about food constantly. And since it IS food; Of course it gives you nourishment and energy without an excessive amount of calories. It’s rather difficult to eat a bowl of cereal, A cup of fruit and a yogurt in the car. I don’t think it should be often used as a meal replacement, But for a quick fix every now and then; It’s good to keep around.
So, Basically this is a blog I’m using to “keep track” of my weight loss progress. I do have a separate personal blog that I stay active on that is in no way connected to or in relation to this one. This blog isn’t for fame or for fun. This blog is for ME. It’s meant to be motivational, A place where I can vent and share my experiences and keep record of my accomplishments. Do not follow this blog in hopes of getting a “follow back”. I will not follow you back unless your blog is subjected around similar content; Weight loss. My current weight is 247 pounds (I’m 18 and 5’4”). I’m am a size 22 in jeans. I would love to be around 120-130 lbs and be in a size 5 or 6. It sounds highly improbable and unpractical. I know it will be tough, But I don’t need easy- I just need possible. I’ve always been “bigger” than MOST girls my age. I wasn’t necessarily “fat”, But I was much more developed. Like, When I was 12 people thought I was 16. I think I just hit puberty sooner. When I was 10 and 11 years old I weighed 140. At 12 I weighed 160. At 13 I weighed 180. I was also younger than most people in my class as well. I was a 15 year old Junior. At the end of my Junior year I weighed 200. When I graduated I weighed 220. I’ve been graduated since 2010 and since then I’ve managed to gain another 27 pounds. I’m sure you can see a pattern. Oddly enough, I’ve never really been bullied about my weight. I’m not going to say I haven’t heard a comment or two here and there, But as a general rule, Most people didn’t mind me. I was my OWN bully and my own enemy. I’ve always been rather hard on myself. But this has seriously gotten out of control. Even if I didn’t weigh as much as other girls and I weighed around 150, That would still be okay. At the rate I’m going though- I’m destined for heart failure and diabetes. Unfortunate as it is, Some of my “fat genes” are genetic. All of the women on my mom’s side are big. My grandmother used to be a lot larger, But she’s managed to drop a good 80 pounds. My Aunt T. had a tummy tuck. My Aunt P. passed away already, But she was a curvier lady. And my aunt M. well, She’s a good 400 pounds. My mom was also big. She had a Gastric Bypass surgery and lost over 100 pounds, But she became SO weak and unhealthy from that surgery she even stated “I wish I was still fat and happy”. She lost all her teeth and she’d hurt violently every time she ate. My mom passed away as well and that surgery is part of the reason why. I don’t want to end up like that. I already have a difficult enough time as it is. I cannot walk into a regular department store and buy something off the shelf or the rack. Nothing fits. I do most of my shopping online on “plus size” sites like Torrid. WetSeal and Forever 21 also carry plus sized clothing online, But I guess they’re too ashamed to sell them in stores. And because plus sized clothes require more fabric and they’re in high demand they cost an arm and a leg. I’ve literally broke down crying in dressing rooms because the jeans I was trying on were too small and I just looked at my body in the mirror covered in stretchmarks and saw attack of the jelly rolls. I can’t walk up a flight of stairs without being exhausted and out of breath. I sweat as if I’m in a sauna even when everyone around me is comfortable because of all my extra baggage. I even wear full body shape wear when I go out. That’s something a 40 year old divorced women wears- Not a teenager. And I’ve been wearing them for a few years. They’re uncomfortable and expensive. I want to be able to feel confident in a bikini instead of making excuses for why I can’t go to a water park or a pool party or the beach. I want to be able to wear shorts in the summer time and feel the breeze instead of being layered in shape wear and jeans. I want to be able to shop at “normal” stores. I want to look in my mirror without devastation thinking “How did I let myself get like this” and having emotional breakdowns. I want to be able to look good in the clothes I put on the first time and not change my outfit 7 times because I look sloppy and unpleasant in all my clothes. I want to be able to wear a bra without having to use TWO bra extenders and STILL having fat roll over the sides of my bra. I want to be able to sit down in my car without my stomach being pressed against the steering wheel. I’ve even had to switch my desks out at school because my desk was “too tight”. I want to actually be disappointed that I bought something “too big” instead of “too small” for once. I want to be able to accept a compliment. I want to stop croping all of my pictures before I upload them. I want to feel like I can eat around people or in public without feeling like people are staring at me thinking “Don’t you think she’s had enough” or “Does she REALLY need to be eating that?” I just want to be happy and feel pretty for once in my life. Not according to society’s standards, But to MY standards. I’m not one of those girls who thinks you have to be a size 0 in order to be beautiful and that anyone who weighs more than 108 pounds is a pig. I don’t think there is anything WRONG with being “bigger” or having curves as long as YOU’RE happy with yourself. I don’t think that being skinny means you’re pretty. I’ve seen small girls who in my opinion- we NOT attractive in the least and I’ve seen bigger women like Adele who are absolutely beautiful. But I still want this for myself. Not so society can accept me, But so I can accept me. It’s not natural or healthy for me to be the way that I am. And regardless of that; I just find smaller figures more attractive to my eye. My own honest opinion. That’s just how I personally want to look. I’ve been big all my life and I want to change that. It’s time to take control. I will prevail I will not fail.
9) Don’t compare 10) Don’t weigh and measure self constantly 11) Sleep and breakfast are most important
Comparing is one of the most unhealthy, dangerous and discouraging things you can do to yourself when losing weight. If you keep looking at other people thinking “You naturally have a beautiful body and I have to do all this hard work and I get barley anywhere. I’ll never look like you. There’s no hope for me” you’re just going to tear yourself down, give up and all your hard work will amount to nothing. You have to stay focused and know that if you’ve gone this far you can keep going and it only gets easier in terms of weight loss. You have to know that other people bigger than you’ve lost more weight that how much you weigh. So, If they can do it so can you. And you can’t expect to have the same results exactly like someone else if you you do the same thing. Every body is different. You have to find what works for you and do it.
DO NOT weigh and measure yourself constantly. Do it as suggested before: About once a month. And one time only!!! If you do it ALL the time you’re going to become obsessed with it and drive yourself mad. You’re going to constantly be angry and disappointed that it’s not as much as you want and again….Get discouraged. Plus seeing results a wittle itty bit everyday is nowhere near as rewarding and stepping on that scale after a month and seeing you’ve lost a significant amount of weight. AVOID WEIGH INS!
Finally; Get plenty of sleep and eat a large, healthy, early breakfast! Sleep can have a major effect on your daily performance. Firstly, You need to get rest and recover from your workouts. Sleep is a perfect time and way to do that! You also need to have enough energy to do your exercising the following day. So get plenty of sleep! You don’t want to have an unhealthy sleeping pattern either. You can’t have an effective life style change if you’re going to bed at 4 A.M and waking up at 2 in the afternoon. By that time you’ve missed two meals, Your metabolism is out of wack and you’re wasted precious time for working out. So, Make sure your sleep is on point!
We’ve all heard this: “Breakfast is the most important meal of the day”. Honestly, This is the truth. Breakfast is what jump starts your day. It gives you your main source of energy to get you through the day. Also, I believe in working out once in the morning and once at night so I need that energy to workout in the morning. In the morning is when you’re metabolism starts going and it needs breakfast to stimulate itself and get runnin’. I hear of a lot of people skipping breakfast to reduce caloric intake. It’s actually not beneficial to skip any meals throughout the day. You need to eat! Just not too much, But breakfast is the meal you need to skip the least! So eat a good hearty breakfast. You should eat bigger meals in the A.M because you’ll burn of more calories the quickest that time of day. And early because you don’t want to have your breakfast too close to lunch time. You don’t want to push lunch too close to dinner time and you don’t want to push dinner time to a late hour. 7:30 should be the latest you eat a meal. Because your metabolism has slowed down by this point and you don’t want to have all that food sitting on your stomach all night. That causes weight gain. Large breakfast, medium lunch and a light dinner. Maybe a light snack or two in between. As long as it fits in with your daily calories (1,500-2,000 AT MOST) Remember to drink plenty of water!!
If you have a family like mine that eats at fast food places a lot it’s difficult to stick to healthy eating habits when you have cheeseburgers being thrown in your face all the time. What helps me is if you are familiar with the places items to write your own menu of healthy alternatives you can order instead of a Large number one with cheese. Most fast food establishments these days try to offer a FEW healthy choices for those who’re body conscious. You can find a baked chicken wrap, A salad or something of that nature. Think of all the fast food places your family visits and write down what you can eat there and the calories on paper and keep it as your own menu. This way you don’t have time to think “I don’t know what I can eat from there… Fine! Get me a burger”. Have that menu ready with your choices!
Patience is a virtue. You’ll have to be patient with a lot of things when losing weight. You’ll have to be patient waiting on your results from all your hard work. You’ll have to be patient waiting for people to notice that you’ve slimmed down and you’ll have to be patient getting used to your new life style. You are going to feel super hungry ALL the time and you are going to be sore from all the new exercising you’re doing that your body isn’t used to. It will only get easier after time and patients. After about a week or two the soreness should go away, But you will still dread working out. Have patients. Also, Another thing to keep in mind is that your stomach is actually only the size of your fist. It really doesn’t NEED as much food as we feed it. But we have stretched our stomachs so much and our bodies have gotten used to consuming that much more food. So, When we don’t eat as much as we usually do our tummy’s growl and we think we’re hungry and we feel hungry, But actually it’s just mental. I mean, People eat all the time just because they’re bored not because they’re hungry and need food. Which is a terrible habit and is one reason there are so many obese people. You have to retrain your body to only expect a certain amount of food. In the process you will feel hungry ALL the time and think about food non stop. The only thing that can get you used to that is time and yeah, You guess it; Patients. People should lose weight for themselves, Not to please other people. But even when you are doing it for yourself- You still like people to notice and compliment you on your hard work. It will come it time. When there’a a dramatic change and people start to notice will feel great about yourself. Just wait for it. Have patients. You’ve got to understand you will not have results over night. You didn’t gain weight over night- You won’t lose it over night. After all the hunger and pain and effort you put into your weight loss you expect to jump on the scale after two days and have lost 15 pounds when really you probably have only lost half an Ounce. It’s discouraging- I know. HAVE PATIENTS. It will come in due time. If you start and the beginning of a month and get to the end of a month and you get on that scale and see you’ve lost 20 pounds you will be ecstatic. It will be so rewarding and you will feel so accomplished and you have THAT much more motivation to keep going.
In my previous note I mentioned that EVERY NOW AND THEN to treat yourself to foods you’ve gone without for awhile AS LONG as you’re sensible about it. But chances to treat yourself to food without guilt/danger are few and far between. You have to be very careful when doing that to because you don’t want to return to your old habits. If you’re somebody who’s losing a significant amount of weight say, 75 pounds- Don’t you think you deserve a little something here and there? But you don’t want to take a chance in blowing all your hard work. Here’s what you do; Treat yourself with material items (or such). Say- For every 20 pounds I lose I’m going to treat myself to______________. Go see a movie, Buy a new hand bag, Get your hair and or nails done, Upgrade to a new phone, Get a tattoo or piercing that you’ve wanted. Just something to reward yourself for your accomplishments. Of course the weight loss itself is a reward, But having a little extra trinket never hurt anyone! My dad actually made me a deal that for every pound I lose he’ll give me a dollar and he’ll buy me a whole new wardrobe. He even said he’ll be my Chubby Buddy and lose weight with me:) (even though he doesn’t really have a NEED to) So, Do that. I mean, Don’t get on this pedestal thinkin’ you deserve all this glory after every 5 pounds, Keep up the work and all, But reward yourself for MAJOR accomplishment. Like I suggested every 20 pounds would be a reasonable amount .
Also, As I mentioned in my previous note; The importance of water. I cannot stress to you how necessary water is. Water is important in general, But ESPECIALLY in weight loss. I mentioned a few benefits of water earlier such as it being hydrating and cleansing. But it goes so much further than that. You cannot even begin to imagine how many calories you save by drinking water instead of sodas, juices, sports drink, ect. It’s seriously a miracle worker. It is also GREAT for your skin. Your skin will become so much clear and healthier looking and it also makes your skin more elastic which can really help when it comes to stretchmarks. It stimulates so much weight loss by clearing out waste instead of your body storing the waste as fat, It helps you feel full so you want to be hungry or eat so much. I can tell you from personal experience that after vigorously working out I was SO “thirsty” and I tried drinking flavored water instead of pure water and my body was NOT satisfied. I was STILL thirsty and I was not hydrated. My body wanted WATER, Not liquid. There is a distinction. WATER WATER WATER WATER WATER WATER WATER!!!!!!!
3) Do not replace and substitute 4) Do not deprive yourself
During weight loss it’s very easy to try and find “the easy way out”. A lot of times I think people get fed up with drinking water because it’s so “boring” so they’ll try and replace it with flavored water or a sports drink. BIG NO NO. Firstly, Water is probably one of the most essential elements in weight loss. Not only is it what your body is losing when you exercise so you need to replace it anyways, But it’s also hydrating, cleansing and filling. Yes, Filling. If you drink a generous amount of water you’re more likely to eat less since you already feel filled. It also rinses waste out of you before your body can get a hold of it and store it as fat. You basically pee out fat. While water was just an example of how replacing things isn’t healthy for weight loss- I have another example. Lets say someone decided to jog and extra 20 minutes in the morning and then go out to Applebees for dinner with friends later that night. Instead of getting a salad they get 20 wings and hope that the extra 20 minutes will compensate for the extra calories. NO! You’re suppose to be pushing yourself and going above and beyond. Not breaking even. Plus, You’re yet again- Giving into your old habits which can be thin ice for you to tread. And 9 times out of 10- You’re going to overdo whatever you’re “making up for” and you would have just been better off letting the 20 minutes be an extra push instead of an excuse for you to eat high caloric foods than undo your day.
With that said- I don’t believe you should COMPLETELY deprive yourself of foods you love while you’re trying to lose weight. It is however YOUR responsibility to know whether or not you’re strong enough to handle that or not. Lets say your birthday is coming up. Of course you’re going to want to enjoy your special day and have cake and a nice dinner and not worry about calorie counting. So, On that ONE day (having a LEGIT reason)- Enjoy yourself. Especially if you’ve been working hard and deserve it. That doesn’t mean be completely careless and have NO boundaries at all, But if you want a steak instead of salad- Go for it. To avoid “guilt” (if that’s your frame of mind) try working that meal into your daily diet. For instance- Make two meals out of that one meal so you don’t consume all of those calories in one sitting. Have water with your meal instead of pop or an alcoholic beverage. Get a baked potato instead of fries. Eat earlier in the day when your metabolism is at its peek. Try and eat light during other meals that day and exercise a little bit more. Of course, Don’t make a habit of this. Be sensible and responsible about it. Just treat yourself from time to time so you don’t have to ALWAYS miss out on your favorite meals and dishes.
1) Be consistent 2) Be realistic. I list these two together because they go hand in hand. When losing weight you have to be consistent with what you’re doing. You cannot only exercise 3 days a week and “eat healthy” for only 4 days and the rest of the week just be all nonchalant. You will not see results this way. If you don’t put in all your effort your results will reflect that. You won’t reach your full potential. If you keep doing what you’re doing you’re going to keep getting what you’re getting. If you don’t go far you won’t get far. You have to keep it up and stick to it religiously. Not only that, But you’re still giving in to your old habits and if you don’t completely turn from them, You’re likely to relapse back to them and you will never reach your goals. It’s a stumbling stone. It will only hold you back. You also must be realistic. A common mistake I see people make when trying to lose weight is that they will have these really high and unpractical expectations. Like “I want to lose 13 pounds in one week”. Okay, That’s next to impossible and possibly fatal. You can’t lose that much in such a short time period. You’d have to cut off your limbs or something. If you did manage to do that-It would be dangerous and it would be water weight or something. Not fat. It would be right back on you the next week. And then when you don’t reach that goal you become discouraged and lose all hope and you give up and undo all your hard work. Plus, You might go overboard and push yourself too far to reach that goal. Which is also dangerous. If it were possible to lose that much in a week Americans wouldn’t struggle with obesity. You also have other people who don’t think they “can do it” so they don’t push themselves hard enough and they’re honestly just cheating themselves. It may be hard, But still possible. You can lose a good 20 lbs in a month. Have that as a steady goal. 20 lbs a month until you reach your goal weight- Then keep it off. This is a life style change. Not a quick fix. Push yourself. No pain no gain.