December 2011
Be safe tonight you guys.
Don’t drink and drive.
Don’t get in a car with a driver whose been drinking.
Don’t let anyone whose been drinking drive.
Have fun, Be safe and have a happy new year!
GO AWAY. DON’T YOU DARE LAY A FINGER ON MY DADDY.
sorry followers
Perdon followers :S
SORRYY!!!
IM SO SORRY.
NO!!!!
I’m…
Thank you:)
I just hate that I let myself get this way in the first place. I’ve ALWAYS complained about my weight and I’ve just let it get worse and worse. Go figure.
What sucks the most is even when I drop 50 pounds and I’m at 200 I’m STILL going to hate my body because when I was 200 I hated my body then too xD. This is going to be a looooong journey.
But my favorite quote to think of when I start thinking like that is “ Don’t let the fear of the time it will take to accomplish something stand in the way of your doing it. The time will pass anyway; we might just as well put that passing time to the best possible use”
While I’m doing this for MYSELF- Proving those other people wrong and making them eat their words will just be an extra treat xD
I don’t think I look 250 though- It’s weird. My dad weighs 250 and he’s 6 ft tall! Lol
Anyways, Thank you though! Haha
I always ramble on, Lol.
Good luck to you on your journey as well!
Actually, It wasn’t a play on words. It was a typo.
But why is that upsetting…
It’s not like I’m LITERALLY going to DIE trying to get skinny, I’m being healthy.
I am going to work my butt off these next two weeks.
January 12th will be ONE month since my “start date” (December 12th).
My goal was to lose 20 lbs in that one months time. I know most people can’t do that, But since I’m bigger (250 lbs) that is possible for me.
The bigger you are- The faster your weight will come off… Then it will gradually reduce as time goes on and I get smaller.
I’ll be happy if I’ve lost 10 lbs honestly.
I know I’ve changed a lot of my ways, But I haven’t been AS loyal as I should have been, But anything is better than what I was doing.
Before I was drinking ZERO water. I did ZERO exercise. And I was probably eating 4000 calories a day (no joke) plus the times I was eating were off the wall.
I went from that to drinking water daily. Doing 45 minutes of cardio daily and limiting my calories to 1,200-1,500.
Even if I haven’t been doing AS WELL as I wanted to. Even if I only worked out 30 minutes or only had 4 cups of water or even has 1,700 calories- That’s STILL much better than where I was and what I was doing. I might not see as a big of a change as I potentially could have or as big of a change as I wanted to- But I have to see SOME change.
These next two weeks I plan to do everything right. Workout EVERYDAY. Drink 8 cups of water a day. 1,200-1,500 calories at MOST. No exceptions, No days off, No cheating, Just dedication.
I bought a new scale because I didn’t think my dial one was very accurate because the needle goes back and forth on it and it’s hard to read. So, I bought a digital one. Anything less than 250 lbs is that much close to my goal weight (125) I’m surprised I made it this far actually. I know I beat myself up when I slip up. Even if I slip up everyday- I’m still doing better than I was before I even started.
Get thin or die trying.
I don’t plan on just saying “screw it” and not trying any more, But honestly, I feel like I’m kidding myself because it’s not like I go a while and then have ONE bad day. I screw up EVERY SINGLE DAY on SOMETHING- I’ve had a “good day” maybe 3 or 4 times out of this entire time. I’m getting no where.
Ugh, The days just keep getting worse and worse.
Not only did I not eat breakfast, But I didn’t eat lunch either.
It’s 3:05 and I’m not even hungry.
I haven’t had any water today.
I was going to workout tonight, But my friends are making me go to some party that I don’t even want to go to so I can’t. You’d think, Oh well- Go workout now- But You’re not supposed to workout on an empty stomach. Then, I would have to shower afterwards. Sweat+shower= no make up.
I already did my make up for the day and I’m not redoing it.
It’s far too expensive and takes like an hour to put on and I dk when they are going to come get me and I don’t want to “not be ready” and ruin their plans.
THIS is why I always “give up” and quit because no matter what I do or how hard I try- EVERYTHING messes up. I can’t stick to anything, be consistent with anything. Even if I do manage to get SOMETHING done- It’s UN done by something I didn’t do. So what’s the freaking point
